Thursday, November 30

before i blog all my stuffs.
i have to rush out to meet my miss vivien ng. (:
she jio-ed me out for interview.
at tampines. (:

i better rush.
she will go mad if i'm late. =\
cya guys. (:

and myprecious,
mydearest,
myjapaneserockstar,
i'm missing you guys badly. =\

you will never know how terribly i cried at xi men ding.

what we could have been, 11/30/2006 01:48:00 PM.

i'm finally back. (:
i LOVE taiwan!

i know i got lots to blog abt.
THAT particular girl.
girls bbq night.
and my taiwan trip.

alright..
i shall blog it bits by bits.
since i have no time to edit all my photos,
i shall comment abt that someone hu spoilt my day.

to that particular girl:
i do agree that you know some of my secrets.
but dun forget, you have secrets with me too.
i'm not afraid of anithing IF you spill the beans.
because, if you reali do that, i shall follow you too.
at most, both of us die.
i dun mind seriously.
so you better jolly well NOT step on my tail.
and just shut up.

and mind you,
look who is saying those grapes sour.
when you dun even know somethings.
i guess, you ought to update yourself.

and oh please,
learn how to spell your words properly.
perhaps www.dictionary.com does help. (:
check whether what you have type does exist.
dun let mygirls have a chance to laugh at your stupidness. (:

and it doesn't matter if i'm fatter than you.
i doubt you are really 45kg.
dun try to lie to yourself.
it will lead to long nose. (:
and so what if i'm reali heavier than you?
at least i'm taller.
sorry to say,
wait till you hit 160cm den TRY to talk to me.
ps: i'm not discriminating short ppl. i have friends who are short. but i still LOVE them. (:

and, get your facts right before commenting on me.
how mani guys i've slept with?
oh please, shoot that question back to yourself.
and i guess, only you know the real answer yourself.
i shan't reveal any of your dirty secrets.

now i guess, you shld be hollowing your own eyeballs now.
and stick it onto the computer screen.
because you, yourself is reading my blog.
right now.
PEST.

oh yah.
make sure you pass your 'N's.
i'm so worried for you.
so worried that you can't even survive 1 more yr in your school.
i feel so sad for you.
1 more year of secondary school while i enjoy my poly life.

so, better keep your mouth clean.
bad mouthing ppl doesn't bring you any good.
we shall see hu has the last laugh. (:

oh well,
and i shan't raise animore comments on this pest.
who just only think so mightly of herself.
wasted so much of my time.
i should have spend my time blogging on the bbq or taiwan trip. =\

what we could have been, 11/30/2006 02:04:00 AM.

Thursday, November 23

leaving for taiwan in 10 mins time.

can bear some things.

and yst's bbq was a big success. (:

i will blog those photos when i get back.

i got lots of stuffs to blog abt.

dear readers,

wait for my return. (:

i will also bring back at most 2600 photos back. (:

TATAS.

bon vovage.

you hope my dreams are true.

but i hope, its not.

what we could have been, 11/23/2006 09:59:00 AM.

Wednesday, November 22

leaving hse soon.
for the bbq with mygirls. (:
will blog either tonight or tml morning before i fly.
will definately blog abt someone who totally spoils my day.
ARGH.

stay tuned readers. (:

what we could have been, 11/22/2006 01:34:00 PM.

Tuesday, November 21

[zHeNyiNg] my japanese rockstar. (: says:
aniway, how's the chicken wing doing there?
` junn . when the violet's red and when the rose turns blue says:
in the fridge
[zHeNyiNg] my japanese rockstar. (: says:
swimming in marination?
[zHeNyiNg] my japanese rockstar. (: says:
LOL.
` junn . when the violet's red and when the rose turns blue says:
slping
[zHeNyiNg] my japanese rockstar. (: says:
chey.
[zHeNyiNg] my japanese rockstar. (: says:
freezing bahs.
[zHeNyiNg] my japanese rockstar. (: says:
pls cover a blanket for them.
[zHeNyiNg] my japanese rockstar. (: says:
i dun wan them to catch a cold.
[zHeNyiNg] my japanese rockstar. (: says:
cover them arhs? (:
` junn . when the violet's red and when the rose turns blue says:
i wrap them in the ntuc plastic bag...2 layer some more
[zHeNyiNg] my japanese rockstar. (: says:
LOL.
[zHeNyiNg] my japanese rockstar. (: says:
okay okay.
[zHeNyiNg] my japanese rockstar. (: says:
but if they complaint its too cold.
[zHeNyiNg] my japanese rockstar. (: says:
i'll find you immediately.
` junn . when the violet's red and when the rose turns blue says:
hahaha.. ok

thats how much i love my bong. (:
aniway,
had a great SHOCK when i saw myprecious's dp.
uper act cute.
and it's the first time i see him so zilian.

hmmph.
there must be a reason. (:
guess i need to talk to him again. =i hope it's something positive. (:

shopping tml again.
better catch some sleep. (:
LOVES. <3

somehow,
i began to miss some things.
his uper amiable mom.
his uper strict dad.
his uper hyper pup.
nevertheless, him.
perhaps, there're just some things which stays forever.
in my heart,
in some corners of the world.
i'm glad that he's living very fine.

actually,
we shld be sticking together daily now,
cuz exams are over.
but we gave that chance a slip.
leading to tis state now.
i dun blame anyone in particular.
it's just that we didn't grab that oppunitity.
and i guess,
i shldn't pout and whine anymore.
i shall let fate and time decide.

what we could have been, 11/21/2006 01:05:00 AM.

Monday, November 20

my Os are finally over.
and it's reali time to have fun. (:
looking forward to the bbq 2 more days later.
althought there's not much ppl.
but i'm sure we will have fun. (:

haven been sleeping well recently.
tried so hard to fell asleep.
and my lullaby doesn't work animore.
waking up at 4.40am every night.
woke up out of shock.
my nightmares are simply scary.
it's either being scare by some stuffs.
or some crazy mad women chasing me with a chopper.
TMD.
i'll turn into a panda if this continues. =\

aniway,
sorry for not blogging tis few days.
i've been out with my parents everyday.
stocking up stuffs needed for the trip.
and i'm uper lazy to on my com and blog.
sorry guys. (:

but i still have fun with my parents.
discussing abt a girl whom i'm disgusted with.
yah.
it's the same girl i mentioned on nov 11.
she turn me off. totally.
the stuffs she do irks me.
pukes.
i totally agree with my mom.
she said,
"the religion has nothing wrong. it's just her character." (:
and i'm so relieve that i'm not a friend of hers. (:
i pity her friends. TSK.

alright..
enough of nagging.
i better pack my stuffs before my mom wacks me. (:
BYE everyone. <3

"we shall talk abt it after the Os"
i dun wanna harbor any more hopes.
cuz i know you'll never fulfil your promises.
i dun wanna confront you.
cuz i dun wan to run away crying.
i dun wanna look into your eyes.
cuz i dun wanna be captured into your fantasy.
my japanese rockstar. <3

what we could have been, 11/20/2006 02:28:00 PM.

Saturday, November 18

2 more days to end of Os. (:

last paper, MCQ.

no need study at all i can say.

i'm VERY HAPPY indeed.

i see my princess hours floating towards me.

i see my bbq walking towards me.

i see my taiwan trip smiling to me.

i see my job application waving at me.

MUAHAHAAAH.

LOVES.

and i'm so looking forward to my pay.

even when i have not even started working.

pay = pamper myself. (:

and i've already planned how to spend my pay.

~~wisefully.~~ i can say.

cuz i'm not gonna save a single cent from my first pay.

pls pray for me i'll get that job. (:

and now,

i'm rotting my ass out.

waiting for mydearest to ring me.

and off we go, for SWIMMING. (:

pls dun take away my memories.

you know how precious they are to me.

you know it.

what we could have been, 11/18/2006 04:54:00 PM.

Friday, November 17

on and off sleep last night.
woke up at 6.30am.
reached skool at 7.30am,
but den realised that F&N paper has been delayed.
and it will only start 1 hr later.
all thanks to mr bush.
tmd,damnit.

and for gods sake,
no one told me.
and i was in the canteen alone.
just sat there like a fool.
i had no where to go.
i can no longer go find him.
so, i can only stay in canteen and study.

F&N paper was alright.
some common sense could be used.
but i did studied lahh. (:
but i'm so tired that i drag my feets home.
straight after my paper.

ate curry chicken with bread for lunch.
isn't as bad as what i thought. (:

TRUCKLOADS of stuffs waiting for me to do.
- pack my clothes into my cardboard.
- tidy up all my books.
- pack clothes needed for taiwan trip.
- watch princess hours.
- shopping.
- catching up with my LOVED ones.
- get prepared for bbq.
- watch colic.
- lose weight.
and basically,
i dun even have time to catch a nap.
and i'm damn sleepy nowadays.
even when i sleep almost 12 hours a day.

any daredevils willing to watch colic with me?
no one wanna watch with me.
they say it's a damn scary movie.
and mygirls say it's dumb to pay money and get scare.
but, i really wanna watch it.
any daredevils?
hmmph. =\

seal it with a kiss.
smile, dimpleboy.

what we could have been, 11/17/2006 02:04:00 PM.

i woke up out of a sudden again.
in the middle of the night.
sweating and feeling anxious.
i dreamt of you again.
this is my 5794255168 times i dreamt of you.
i thot you were already out of my mind.
but i guess, i'm wrong again.
i duno what's wrong with me.
and i'm not sure whether isit a good thing or not.
get me out of everything,
for goodness sake.
with you around,
i can no longer breathe.
i duno thats a good thing anot.
but to me, it's definately torturing.
smile to me,
just once more.
send me all your love thru your wide smile.
and i'll be glad. (:
smile, dimpleboy .

ps; i tink i've gotten a job.
quite a good one thou.
but yet to confirm.
i'll be working in a child care centre. (:
dealing with kids and lil cuties. (:
it will definately be an enjoyable one.
pls bless that i'll get that job.
LOVES.

what we could have been, 11/17/2006 12:22:00 AM.

Tuesday, November 14

warning! image heavy. (:

and it's a UPER damn long post.

i uploaded these photos that day.

but i'm only free today, 16/11.

sorry that till now den i blog.

kinda busy.

went manda's hse that day to bake some cookies.
no specific reasons thou.
cookies were for the 3 of us,
no one else. (:

sort of to celebrate ending of Os.

althought haven officially ended. =\

had so much fun there.
playing with zara.

laughing at the broken egg.

playing with the dough.
baking those cookies.
eating fried rice with meatballs.
playing with her piano.

melting of butter under the sun.
playing dai di.
cam-whoring.
chatting and talks. (:

LOVE was definately felt. <33

reached home at 7 plus that night.

have been reaching home quite late tis few days.

i reached home at 8 plus yst.

went swimming with mydearest again. (:

as usual,

had SO MUCH fun with mydearest.

swam countless no. of rounds.

wanted to spot some hunks from waterpolo team.

but too bad, can't see. =\

but tis time, we run away from a guy?

okay. he looked like a teenager.

but i tink he has down-syndrome.

and perhaps he only wanna make friends with us.

but his actions kinda horrified us.

and the first thing that came into our mind was to run.

but we felt guilty after that.

real sorry. =\

i heard a latest news.

my zax, wang renfu, is becoming a dad in 10 days time.

i can only express my feelings with a word,

"ambivalence".

hmmph.

i'm sad yet happy for him.

his lil one is a princess. (:

i bet he will be a good dad.

making his princess happy at all times. (:

i want a baby right now.

LOL. =\

aniway,

i'm 1 week away from my taiwan trip!

i heard it's 17 degrees there.

whoohoo.

my mom showed me the itinerary.

i shall update the highlights of where i'm going.

cuz i wun be blogging for the 7days in taiwan.

first day.

fisherman wharf where meteor garden was filmed.

tan shui lao jie.

and dinner at shilin ye shi. (:

second day.

going xi men ding. <3

and some tourist attraction.

having xiao long pau for dinner. (:

third day.

hot spring.

and places where ah-mei tribe stay.

forth day.

cijin island to ride richshaws.

love river for ferry ride. (:

also going to taiwan tallest building.

up to 75th story in 43 seconds. (:

and lobster abalone seafood for dinner. ((:

fifth day.

going kao xiong.

den i very beautiful tree house for lunch.

some sun moon lake.

and finally night market. (:

sixth day.

going tai zhong.

going taipei 101.

and mala guo for dinner.

seventh day.

and finally, home sweet home. ((:

i thought of it that day.

i dun care.

even it's 17 degrees there,

i MUST eat fen yuan bing.

mang guo bing.

shui guo bing.

HEEHES. (:

uper LOVE my parents.

for bringing me to taiwan.

and i'm looking very forward to my trip. (:

dun worry,

i'll bring back lots of photos.

the dream i had last night made me realised,

i've yet to forget you.

but please,

dun let that smile of yours leave your face, dimpleboy.

what we could have been, 11/14/2006 11:38:00 PM.

my new hobby. (:

i LOVE cooking pancakes for my family.

see-ing them smile makes me contented. (:

have been munching on dried fruits.

one of my sliming down plans.

but my dad spoilt it.

he bought me nuggets.

not 6 piece. but a BIG bag.

and he wanted to deep fried it for me.

and i ate 6 pieces. :(

itsdamnsinful. =\

i guess i have to do extra situps tonight.

argh.

perhaps i must work on my 2nd plan.

run up stairs with zhenyi everyday.

that will definately slim us down. (:

whoohoo.

played lots of online games with myprecious just now.

and we are kinda hooked by hexic.

having lots of fun.

we both are PROS. (:

and i love myprecious lots lots. <3

it's 2am now.

and i have to get up at 9am tml.

in order not to be late.

8 more hrs to meeting mygirls. (:

and now, i miss mydearest badly too.

althought i'm very sleepy.

i couldn't get to sleep.

look thru all photos in my com.

some flash backs appeared again of cuz.

but just quickly shoo it away. (:

i just dun wanna restart everything again.

it's scary.

alright alright.

better catch some sleep.

dun wanna fall asleep in a bag of flour tml. (:

hugs everyone. <33

will upload pics tml.

smile, dimpleboy.

smile like how you usually do.

cuz i've falling deep in love with your smile.

what we could have been, 11/14/2006 01:26:00 AM.

Monday, November 13

went swimming yst with mydearest.

had so much fun.

piggy-backing each other;

carrying each other;

swimming away from that black pervert.
and of cuz,

screaming and avoiding those floating insects. =\

had dinner with her.

went spring to play.

testing those cosmetic and nail polish.

painted her nail RED. (:

MUAHAHAAH.

was uper happy tis morning.

no cramps aniwhere. (:

yeah, NO cramps totally after that 2 hour swim.

was enjoying myself everyday.

staying up late till 4am,

not to study.

but to watch myforeversohandsomeCAOGE.

MUAHAHAH. ((:

although i still have 2 more paper.

but, ARGH.

wotever.

hmmph. =\

so busy that i'm lazy to come online.

and myprecious thought i MIA. (:

HEEHES.

that cutie. <33

and tml,

i'm going manda hse with bong.

to bake some cookies. (:

and i'm looking forward to it.

i miss mygirls badly. (:

and i guess,

it's really time to let go.

what we could have been, 11/13/2006 01:13:00 PM.

Saturday, November 11

pancakes for breakfast in the morning;

slacking the whole day;

munching on snacks;

going crazy;

hyperactive-ing.

what more can i ask for? (:

and,

to add on my happiness,

I'M GOING SWIMMING TML. (:

MUAHAHAAH.

to hav fun and also to shed off some fats. =\

i guess i'm the happiest girl in the world.

LOVES. <33

aniway,

i reali feel uper disgusted by someone.

okay, dun get mistaken.

it's a girl i'm mentioning abt.

okay okay.

i will not comment abt her on my blog,

but i am totally digusted by her act.

perhaps i'm the only one hu feel that way.

but just, OMG.

faints. =\

my LOVED ones,

come ask me personally and i'll tell you guys. (:

alright,

tatas.

storing extra energy for tml's hyperactive activity. <3

i chose to smile.
cuz somehow,
i know you're living VERY fine in some corner of the world.
take good good care of yourself,
mylove. (:

what we could have been, 11/11/2006 07:03:00 PM.

princess hour is LOVE. ((:
and i'm counting down.

10 more days to freedom.

and 10 more days before i can officially watch my princess hour. (:

MUAHAHAAH.

i hate the feeling of when the vcd is just there but i cannot watch it.

but, just 10 more days.

HEEHES. (:

things are getting very fine for me.

and i'm trying very hard. seriously.

but frankly speaking,

i'm quite angry abt YOU.

as a act of courtesy,

i tink you SHLD reply me.

moreover, the topic is abt something important.

ARGH.

forget abt it since you wanna be so ruthless.

and looks who's talking now. =\

gosh.

i'm falling in love with so mani nice songs.

- liang shan bo yu zhu ying tai.

- mei ren yu.

- ai ku gui.

and i tink ai ku gui is uper nice.

the lyrics nearly made me cry.

guess i'm gonna change my blog song to ai ku gui.

LOVES. <33

that song is reali 100% meant for me.

i swear.

even the senario and character also the same. (:

ji ju hua yu, wo de lei que zhi bu zhu.

ni shuo fen shou shi hou,

fang fu zao jiu xiang qing chu.

liu wo yi ge duo zai jiao luo,
lai bu ji ku, zhi neng sha zhu.

what we could have been, 11/11/2006 02:24:00 AM.

Friday, November 10

sorry guys.

i'm kinda busy with my Os.

papers and papers EVERYDAY.

sleeping very late everynight.

damn tired.

and finally, after today,

at least i can manage to catch my breath. (:

ss paper was quite okay.

geo paper was quite okay also.

not much confidence for tis 2 papers thou.

bio paper was easy.

physics paper, DIE DIE DIE.

LOL.

it's uper hard kayys.

i thought i was the only one feeling tis way.

but when i stepped out of the hall,

everyone was shaking their heads.

LOL.

maths paper 1 was quite easy.

thats why i wanna chiong for my paper 2.

so that it wun pull me down. =\

english paper was alright.

i guess i shld do well for my compo.

a very CHIM compo. (:

went for my last maths tuition last night.

with mysweeties.

sherley treated us pizzahut. ((:

and everyone was in chaos abt the smelly toilet. =\

had so much fun last night.

aniway,

the theme for prom night is finally out.

some heart-of-asia thingy.

but can wear formal also lahh.

it's at some wu-lu wu-lu hotel.

heard its only 2 star. =\

and we still have to pay 50 dollars for it.

50 dollars is not including dress and stuffs. :(

seriously,

i tink its not worth.

with that 50 dollars,

we can get a class chalet with unlimited amount of food.

hmmph.

i'm most probably not going.

no prom date. nothing.

no one urge me to go also.

hmmph.

3 more paper and everything is over. (:

and here comes my craziness. <33

i cannot imagine myself after Os.

working, tonn-ing, town town town,

bbqs, out with mygirls, out with sweeties,

diet-ing, baking cookies and cakes.

and, MY TAIWAN TRIP! ((:

MUAHAHAH.

there's so much more things to list.

and i guess i'm going swimming tis weekend.

LOVES. (:

i'm looking forward to lots of stuffs.

basically after Os lahh.

cuz after Os,

i have a long list of to-do-stuffs waiting for me.

and den, kor kor will be giving me my b'day present. (:

and lots of catching up.

with mygirls.

with sweeties.

with myprecious.

with all my LOVED ones. ((:

alright den.

i shall go revise for my paper 2 already.

bye guys. (:

i smiled that widely because i know you are living very well w/o me.

take care.

what we could have been, 11/10/2006 11:48:00 AM.

Thursday, November 9

1 hour away from my geo paper.
kinda nervous.
cuz i didn't prepare for it.
suppose to wake up at 7 to study.
in the end, slept till 12. =\

alrighht,
i know i've been neglecting my blog.
hmmph.
i promise i'll blog tonight okay? (:

take care EVERYONE.
LOVES. <33

that song of ours have become my lullaby.
it has become my everynight's habit.
just like you, being the habit in my life. ((:
HUGS.

what we could have been, 11/09/2006 12:47:00 PM.

Sunday, November 5

met mygirls to study at 12pm that day.
instead, they planned something else.
secretively.
they insisted of treating me lunch.
saying it's my b'day present.

but that was not the end of it.
half way thru the meal,
manda brought out a slice of cake from no where.
and she insisted that the b'day song have to be sang out LOUD.
and i know, she wun be embarrased over such stuffs.

but i tried all means to prevent her from singing.
covering her mouth,
pulling her,
shaking her,
warning her.
LOL.

and they also bought me a box of choco from chocolat world.
i guess it has cost a bomb. =\
after that, we went for neos. (:
upload them when blogger is working.

and, we didn't study that day.
took out our books.
but gossiped at bk.
looking at the most handsome girl. ((:
LOL.

thanks manda, bong and sophia for everything.
LOVES. <33

perhaps tis yr,
although it wasn't my desired b'day.
but at least,
i celebrated with my 2 grps of LOVED ones.
sweeties and mygirls. (:
and they gave me very fond memories too.
thanks. <33
p/s: thanks those ppl who wished me happy b'day too. (:

went long john with mydearest today.
another heart-to-heart talk session.
a damn long one. (:
and i reali feel that she will be one of those hu will stand by me always.

lots of things are happen recently.
and i'm still trying to figure out how to accept some facts.
i shld say,
its really a lesson for me.
and i've learnt things which might not be taught in school.

and i have my own new defination for ppl.
which is..
"every human is a pro in changing mask. because, you will never know when they will be changing their mask."
perhaps i'm wrong.
and perhaps some ppl might not agree with wot i've said.
but, this is my own opinion.
and truely, it's based on my own experience.
believe it or not. (:
and, i live for myself.
and for those loved ones ard me.
not for some double agent.
or some ninjas. ((:
p/s: notice the word, "own". so pls dun come accuse me for some childish manners.

i guess for now,
i will concentration more on my studies.
i can't be bothered abt reputation or wotsoever animore.
since like wot you said,
my reputation is so bad.
den so be it.
let it rot den. (:
acting cute or not,
its up to my friends to judge.
everything will come to light one day.
and i have nothing to fear when i've done nothing wrong.

and since there's nothing i can say to make you believe me.

den forget abt it.

i wun try to defence for myself animore.

it doesn't work aniway.

and my next target is to study psychology.

i guess it will definately interest me.

cuz i wanna know what human being is thinking actually.

but provided, i score well for Os.

and enough marks for me to get into that course. (:

no one deserves your tears,

and the one who deserves your tears will not make you cry.

i guess tis time, its for real.

what we could have been, 11/05/2006 01:33:00 AM.

Friday, November 3

since he did not asked me out today.

i slept till 5.30pm.

alright, he did msg me in the end.

in the morning.

and we chatted thru msg before i doze off.

jie brought me to tm.

and she bought a cake for me. (:

quite happy indeed.

~~will upload photos tml.~~

and i melted all my candles into tis.

i invented it myself.

the best way to remind me of those happy memories. (:

and, i bought pancake mix from ntuc. ((:

finally,

my carving for pancakes will be gone tml.

cheeros.

okay.

its 4.45am now,

and i'm meeting mygirls to study later on.

guess i will be late again. =\

perhaps i shall forgo the sleeping part.

and meet them straight at 11 later. (:

just ended a conversation with him.

manage to hold back my tears in the beginning.

but cry terribly when he told me stuffs frankly.

not because i'm emo.

just because i felt like a big big fool.

and also, i couldn't accept some facts.

sighhs.

perhaps i'm just tinking too much.

thot that everything will go on as i wished.

but, harsh reality wouldn't let me go.

yah,

things he told me hurt me deeply tis time.

he changed.

to someone whom seems so raw to me.

never did i know i'm not the kind of girl for him.

never did i know i just meant nothing to him.

never did i know i'm just a trouble maker for him.

never did i know i'm his biggest regret.

dear readers,

pls dun ask me what happen.

give me some time to adapt to major changes again.

and also, i dun wanna break down again.

i need some time alone.

thanks.

he has made things very clear.

and i guess,

its gameover for us.

there's just too much misunderstand between us.

i miss his smell.

i miss him badly.

teared when the so-called-song which belongs to both of us was played on my winamp.

hmmph, i have to forget abt him now.

alright, i know i've been repeating tis for 49134598215 times.

and perhaps you guys already got bored over it.

but, i'll try my best.

but, i'm a big girl now.

and i know what i want exactly.

so, for now, i will not change my mindset.

till i met another guy suitable for me.

but provided, i'm willing to know more abt that guy.

which is so impossible cuz i will definately refuse to.

sighhs.

let fate decide on everything.

but i'll probably believe in myself and stick to my own mindset. (:

to all my friends,

i'll probably go mia for a few days.

let me settle things down.

and give me some time alone.

tatas everyone. (:

take cares.

everything began with you.

and also ended with you.

you still lingers in my heart.

and i'm still looking forward to it.

LOVES. <3

what we could have been, 11/03/2006 03:49:00 AM.